halfway drawing the banner which is gonna be due on friday.
I suddenly thought of what wls had told me.
he said that a student's most basic responsibility is to study hard and get good results.
its true, and it does make alot of sense. and i personally feel that we have to fulfil that basic responsibility before we take on other responsibilities. this is a big lesson to be learnt.

what i intended to do for the hols (before hols start version)
1. read up more on financial crisis
2. read times to improve gp
3. read chinese novel to prep for h3 cll
4. finish reading xue shan fei hu
5. finish hols assignment
6. keep revising maths
7. prom
8. yep
9. orientation

what had been done
1. prom
2. yep halfway, left with post exped

and nth else.
what happened.

been doing handicrafts i guess, those time consuming work, like frames and banners.
cool, and im suffocating in the cold.
i cant just do banner, becuz i need to work on the proposals too.
oh, and i still have trainings.
why, why did it happened again.
i have the answer.
the answer lies within me.

but sometimes i like to think, why, why am i doing it all on my own.
becuz it's my responsibility so we work alone?
and outsiders told me things like "totally lack team spirit"
as an insider, i felt ashamed.
4 months left, could we build it up?
perhaps this is the correct way to work too.
for this, i dont have any answer.

no idea, totally, no idea
where do i go from here