forbidden city

alright.
im PISSED NOW. LIKE REAL PISSED.
just because of this sentence.

"oh haha ee aftnn show whr gt nice"

excuse me SIR.
we watched plays because they are nice and there's a meaning and lesson behind every play. who gives a damn about morning, afternoon or night show?
if you watch a play, not because you want to watch, but just because it's night show or to go with friends, it's totally meaningless.
please dun insult the art of musical plays.

alright. so you see. i went to watch forbidden city today.
i watched with mabel cos we promised to watch it together before the school tells us about it.
and it's really nice.
we really get to understand the characters in the play deeply.
like we're able to immerse ourselves in their roles.
and i really love kit chan's voice.
i like their song. and everything.
it's really great.
everything is so real abt the world.
scheming everything just to benefit themselves.
sad world we live in.
i yearn for euphoria.
anyway,
i love forbidden city!!

well.
today somebody asked me why cant i sleep well at night.
im seriously stunned.
i think i dun have peace at all.
i lost faith in everything.

lost my faith in love.
lost my passion and faith about bball.
lost my motivation to study.
lost my determination to do things.
lost my perserverance to survive till the end.

i gave up on everything.
i didnt even wanna try.
im full of fears.
bold as i seem, but im a coward.
i dun dare to try to overcome my fear.
because i know that it's bad.
it's useless.
i will fail in everything i do.

WHERE IS MY CONFIDENCE?
WHERE AM I?
WHAT AM I?

i lost my identity.
i lost myself.
im gone.
when will i be back?
when will i start to believe?

where's my hope.

yes.
i seemed happy.
i looked happy.
i sounded happy.
but im not.
im not.
there's something inside my heart.
which nobody understands.
noone does.

empty
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lost faith in love