happy birthday(:

hello to all. it's been sucha a long time ever since i blogged properly. well. firstly, i would like to thank those who wished me happy birthday. thank you very much.

NANA! SHUJUN! MABEL! KAREN! TINGG! SHERM! PAWPAW! CAPT!

THANKYOUSOMUCH!!!!! <33

dahei june grace comint qianye jocelyn cindy fandi shanmin yuting xiumin jamie leongheng candice zhiyin vincent wenyou qianjun raymond zhiwei mr yeo ms seow tricia zhuowen dave

thankyouforwishing(:

zhenhui

thankyou for everything for these past few years. you've been a really great daddy!

jiajian

i really gotta thank you for the four leaf clover handphone accessory and also spending the time to write me that song. it's okay that you didnt sing for me. :)

SAFE XD

i dont know if you'll be reading this. but still, thank you very much. for sending the present over to singapore. and happy birthday to you too. we're born on the same day 260391<33s
hope you'll receive my present soon too! XD

4e'07

y'all have been a great class! thanks for showing support to your dear chair! your chair thus decide to let you all sit on her anytime you want. she'll be there for all of you! and really thank you for the board. it's lovely(:

alright. end of my thank you session.
XD

well. im feeling the same way all over again. which is not good. and no good. and bad. maybe i have to try to bear with the realizations. so many things on my mind. so many troubles and stuffs. but lucky i keep a diary. if not i guess i'll really explode.

it's definitely a year that's really gonna pass fast. very much faster. i'll basically be full steam ahead. for everything. no time to rest and all anymore. i've been sick for one week. that's a really big break and it lagged me by alot. i cant afford to fall sick anymore. i hope my health will be able to get pass this stage.

im 16. hmmm. maybe, i realised what's birthdays for. it's for you to acknowledge your age. that's all. birthday come and go. many birthdays. and i. suddenly just had this feeling. i wish, i dun have to celebrate birthdays. what's that to celebrate seriously? it's becoming so commercialised that it's also a measure/gauge of your popularity. and it also shows where you stand and all. good or bad. i dunno. the world's moving. and we caught up this way. we gotta live with it isnt it? and birthday means you're one year older. that's all. why celebrate? i dun wanna grow up. i wanna turn back the time. so what's there to celebrate again. im sucha abcdefg person that i dun know me anymore.

you go one big round just to come back to the same point. same thing. nothing's change. you run away. you run one big round. and now, you're back to the same point. what do you do? you live on. but you cant walk away from it anymore. you're gonna walk towards it. get hurt by it. and learnt how to get pass it.

there are so many things that should be left unknown. but i just tumbled upon it. and come to know of so many things. it's running through my mind like an endless story. how do i stop it? you stop it by finding a full stop to the story. you cant cut it like that. cos you wont feel good. so i wont stop myself from thinking so much. but i'll like it go on in my mind. and i'll find the stop button to stop things beautifully.

realizations are not bad. because you learn something from it. but i'll just think alot. sorry if i dao you or something. because really, alot is on my mind. so i apologize now if anything happens.

hmmm. it's been so long since i last went for training. well. let me explain myself. you can call it excuses and whatsoever. i dun really care. but i ought to explain myself. firstly, i find it pointless for me to go training, because my health is not at it's top form and it's useless training cos it wont produce positive results. in fact, i might get pneumonia. you say that im paranoid, but im not. i wanna have a long life. so that friends wont go through the pain of losing a friend/enemy. so i guess i'll be fine soon, den i'll go for every training. i wanna see things for how they are and make things right.

im so looking to the end of this year. im so looking forward to exams. im so looking forward to challenges. im so looking forward to everything. isn't that how life is supposed to be?

i'll blog again about life. about me coming to terms with life. how i understand life in the end.

turning back the time, means you'll perfect things, means you wont learn your mistakes.
when you make a mistake, you really learn it when you stop telling yourself that you wna turn the time back.

live for the present.
live for your life.
life is now.
right in front of you.
you dun see it.
but you feel it.
right in your heart and soul.
it's in you.